Turn-down

Being turn-down after working so hard on your resume, a cover letter, reference letters, the perfect attire for interview and just being mentally prepared sucks.

Since moving this is all I have done, besides being here with you all. I have put in so much thought as to the best possible outcome, giving myself the most advantages as possible that the rejection of being told “yeah so we went with another candidate instead, you were great and we wish you the best of luck.” As I reply too nicely but upset rushing to get off the phone because darn it there goes another job out the door and I wasn’t good enough. ugh.

My mom would tell me to pray and what happens is Gods work. Sometimes I think yeah there is something in that path I am not suppose to see or be apart of or do. Or rather something else isn’t suppose to be in my path. But then other times I feel crushed like why was I not good enough, I had thoughts and hopes about how my life can change, better yet what I can bring into my little family. But I do believe everything happens for a reason and I must be patient and let time do its work.

The only thing I can control is my reaction and thoughts. And with that there must be something I am meant to be doing instead and I am ready to find out. No matter how small it may seem I will it do it well and to the best of my ability because you never know in the long run it may impact bigger than one can see.

P.S. Don’t stop smiling